Very..very..very...Disappointed

am i an egoistic person?! u know it's really hard 4 me 2 know what's going on exactly?Actually i don't want problems, i mean we'll separated soon, n why we're just be angry each other? is that a big problem? why we're not solve this problem with peace n not with egoistic thinking?! it's still childish things?! HELLOOOOO now we're in 3rd senior high school, why we're still like a baby child?! u know i'm going to mad, bcoz all of u are my soulmate 4ever n my bestfriend, no matter what happened between us!n Actually i don't want 2 be angry but unfortunately u makes me angry, of course u know that n the 2 other people makes me disappointed, they're just push me down n backing down without know what exactly happened between me n the other, n who's wrong?! n they're not thinking of how do we solve this problem? really..really..really...makes me disappointed, u want me 2 know how do u fell?! have u ever been thinking about how i feel?!, NO! u never want 2 know how i fell?! so what's going on.. i don't know anything?! i just know that u makes me disappointed..angry, mad ..n from right know .. don't ever think about *******E!!!!!!!...all is NATOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! damn IT!!!!!!n just think bout our exam n how 2 passed the exam?! n the last word i want to talk is do u feel better right know?!... n i just want to apologize if there's a word that makes u hurt?! eventhough i don't know who's wrong?!n who's egoistic person?! ME YOU OR THE OTHERS?!